Thursday, June 29, 2006
10:38 PM
290606 22.38
- rants ; part I
music; pearl harbour
mood; happy ^^
` ` W I N N I N G L O S E R
you say you're a born loser
you say you're doomed to failure
and to lose - but i want to tell you once again
you're no loser - and i want to tell you that
you're a winner in my heart
you said you were a loser
you said you were doomed to fail and die
but what you did proved you wrong
and i will prove it again to you
you told me you were a loser
you told me you would always fail
but i told you every day and every time
at every moment you lost hope
i told you that you were no loser
i told you that you had won
you said you were a loser
you said you were doomed to fail and die
but i told you that you won
you're the sole winner in my hearty
you won both my heart and soul
my locked-up heart and
subtle and shadowy soul
and yet you claim never to win anything
how i wish i could just tell you
you're the winner in my life
you said you were a loser
you said you would never achieve anything
but i could never bring myself to tell you
my heart just drifted away with your very presence
i watched you from the corner of my eyes
your gentleness; your subtleness
i still find it hard to understand
how could anyone like you be a loser
and how could anyone like you
not bear to win my heart away
you will discover the winner within you
` ` copyrighted by wenyun
ho ho. i feel very bored. ^^ i wrote that like ages ago. sheesh. lets just say its random stuff.
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music; Omnisoul - Waiting (Save Your Life) - V4
hmm. talking to mingjie and janice now. apparently amel escaped somewhere else. haha. i guess shes busy with filing now. haha. file checks are going to freak me out lah. my file is weirdly organised. haha. i dont think i followed the standards. but never mind.
haha. my brother just suggested we have a combined percussion concert i.e. RJ, RI and RG dajiyue people lah. he says probably at the end of the year during the december holidays, so i guess theres no need to worry about exams basically. and it might be something like a christmas concert.. ^^ this is just the basic idea for now i suppose. if it is possible, we will be performing at the performing arts centre in RJ. ((:
so erm BL needs opinions. like what do you think we can perform if we really have this concert.. that kind of stuff? but anyway, im not very sure of this myself so im actually just giving you people a rough guideline of what might happen.
arh. i sound weirdly too formal.. yes i am too formal. GAH. this is just a rough idea. so im not that sure about like the smallest of details. but yes. we might be having a combined concert so YAY. ^^
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music; The All American Rejects - Dirty Little Secrets
mood; tired
hmm. i banged my liuqin for 2 hours solid today. ^^ achievement!! finally. after a few days of not touching it. yes. only that my fingers are now quite sore and the skin got rubbed in pretty deep. so it's quite painful? i suppose success doesn't come without a price so there goes my nice little fingertips. amel says sooner or later my fingers will get some jian thing. like got a thick layer of flesh grow on your fingers so when you poke a needle through your finger it isnt painful or something. its sort of gross lah but its the only way you can play your liuqin well. EE. thinking of it nearly made me spit out my milo lah. sheesh.
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music; He Bei Hua Bang Zi
i shall continue with my rants about philo tmr. im not sounding subtle enough recently. i seem to have lost my subtle touch. GR. i need to be subtle.
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-rants ; part II
music; Next Game - Singapore Chinese Orchestra - Ngoh Kheng Seng, Shen Guo Qin, Teo Teng Tat, and a jap guy [whats his name again? dunno. ^^]
mood; dizzy like hell. ^^
GAH. today kweky tortured my poor head. keep hitting my head so hard. now im still very dizzy. o.o. all your fault lah kweky!! ><>
no one is online. i got no one to talk to!! sheesh.
lonely i'm so lonely, i have nobody, to call my owwnnn ~ i'm so lonely, i'm mr. Lonely, i have nobody, to call my owwnnn ~
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music; Hong Lou Meng Xu Qu
mood; tired but happy. ^^
now i dont feel dizzy anymore. gah. i want to wash my face again and again and again. yes. i want to dunk my whole head in water. cause im not awake enough. but during philo i was very awake. ((: philosophy rocks. ho ho ho. so its no more bittersweet. its sweet. ho ho. only that the guy teaching us philo isnt MY type of teacher. hahaha. lets just put it that way.
today in philo. aii. i wont say everything lah. very fun. in some way. haha. i mean. it was quite funny really. HOO HWA. ~
now BL's watching Batman Begins again. GAH. and as usual im tagging along. like duh. theres no entertainment here. oh shit. got homework. ARH. i shall do it later. after this entry. hahaha. i wont finish this by today. YEEHA. ^^
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bl is going to his fren's house now. sheesh. dumb right. in the middle of the night. hoho. i shall continue another day. byebye.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
11:31 PM
omg im actually posting. cant believe it. no choice im juz toooo boreddddd! ahaha. owells. i juz realised i have hcl on concert day. very first block early in the morning. can slp in class again!!! ahahah. so im gonna c him again. X.X oh but he wld be in duno where ritee??? gr8!
oh ya. something very impt. i dno if im suppsoed to say. but i juz wanto say.
my fren said her osl grp is gonna sell flowers/drinks for @ our concert. budden they fundraising for their project. so if psb one no business den we wont get $$$$$ for our funds!!!! sheesh. nevermind. anyways, jiayou everybuddy for concert! end of co stuff.
The day you went away--M2MWell i wonder could it beWhen i was dreaming 'bout you babyYou were dreaming of meCall me crazy, call me blindTo still be suffering is stupid after all of this time*pre-chorus 1Did i lose my love to someone betterAnd does she love you like i doi do, you know i really really do*ChorusWell heySo much i need to sayBeen lonely since the dayThe day you went awaySo sad but trueFor me there's only youBeen crying since the dayThe day you went awayI remember date and timeSeptember twenty secondSunday twenty five after nineIn the doorway with your caseNo longer shouting at each otherThere were tears on our faces *pre-chorus 2And we were letting go of something specialSomething we'll never have againI know, i guess i really really know*chorusThe day you went awayThe day you went away*pre-chorus 1*chorusWhy do we never know what we've got 'til it's goneHow could i carry onThe day you went awayCause i've been missing you so much i have to sayBeen crying since the dayThe day you went awayThe day you went awayThe day you went away ahahah the very nice song!!! wenyun n kweky pls stop asking me to sing for your. can go get the mp3 yourself yea. if not i can gladly send to your. kweky, im not gonna sing this for your juz because u sang
one nite in beijing ok. haha cuz i sang along too. so quits. XD
p.s: dachangjin prac was so nicee. with the vibraphone n wadeva instrus we added in. lol
10:07 PM
im cracking from the outside. im shattering on the inside. why can't it just shatter properly???
had piano. and my piano teacher said. "if someone moves (taifeng) and feels awkward, the audience will get goosepimples. so if you cant move you shouldnt move at all." but i would like to encourage everyone to move. if really cannot then dont move lah. because if you move the whole performance will be really better. and it will be a performance and not just playing of black dots.
today had a little discussion about concert with.. sherry yuching joss. backstage stuff lah. basically we're back to the same arrangement of rooms as two years ago. so daji is using stage right level 3 dressing room. (stage is level two). on 14 july we can leave class at 12.40. rough timeline:
12.40pm: leave class, lunch~1.00pm: start moving instruments from k s chee to foyer1.15pm: stocktake, other sections assemble in foyer1.30pm: lorry and buses (3) arrive, we move instrus onto lorry1.45~2.00pm: lorry and bus 1 (daji, backstage, yangqin, diyinbu) leave for VCH as soon as we're ready~2.30pm: reach VCH and start moving up to concert hall3.00pm: full-dress rehearsal6.00pm: dinner, tiao yin, daji change 6.45pm: ah gui, whoever (sherry, selene^^. do i want? i dont need lah. i will nag from now on^^) prep talk7.00pm: freak out, calm down, wait for concert to start7.30pm: concert (backstage will be locked from.. 7pm to after concert)9.30pm: go crazy!! sing? cheer?? yes. WOOTS10.00pm: move instruments, stocktake10.15pm: lorry and one bus arrive10.30pm: go back to school (o.o that's early)11.00pm: reach school, pack instrus into storeroom11.30pm: go home? can we go pig out?? then go home at like. 12am or 1..? haahaha. im quite serious. ^^italics: timeline invented by me.and there'll be a recording of the concert. dunno is video or just audio. think it costs $10. want to buy one and.. (if you're not daji pretend you dont see the rest)
burn? that way we save money ^^. if you want to get original then you pay $10 lorh. and tell me your orders by monday. AND bring ticket money on monday. everything monday. very important. because it's the first day of term three. im going off track. back to co.
so bus one 35~40:
- backstage 10~15 (not confirmed. remind me to ask yuching to send me the list)
- daji 8
- diyinbu 13 (o.o.)
- yangqin 4
basically the ppl who need to move instrus first, will leave with lorry, and thus reach with lorry so can facilitate movement of instrus
bus two 37:
- xianyue 27
- part of tanbo 10?
sheesh. they may be splitting tanbo or chuiguan lah. xianyue a bit hard to split?
bus three 30:
- chuiguan 20
- other part of tanbo 10
since lulu say one bus max. 40 therefore we need three buses.. even if max is 50, we also need.. orh. two buses can lah, but will be very squeezy. so we got 107 total performers and backstage. oh. then still got frontstage hor. or is pb doing frontstage (reception)? and emcees two only lah. we cant not go to school in the morning.. oh my goodness then ppl who dont bathe in the morning....!!!! PEOPLE PLEASE BATHE IN THE MORNING!! not that it matters much, cos when we move the instrus we'll be sweaty and stinky anyway. ah, but at least dont have "last night's smell". let's get excited about concert!!! woohoo.
currently, it is. 20 days to concert. approx. will count hours when it's nearer. GASP. NEARER. oh shit oh shit oh shit. JIA YOU!! those things that you are not able to do yet, but must do, you have no choice but to do it. and i advice you to do it quickly. aiyah. this place only frequented by half of daji. say here also no use.
goodbye and see you on monday. shall i come online on sunday? hmm. maybe i should sit at the table and practise studying properly.
<3 kweky 10.47pm 24 june 2006
Sunday, June 18, 2006
4:32 PM
bloody hell. presently, tmr 6 people are...... not going. amelia not confirmed. deep in discussion with wenyun. ^^ wonderful. sherry smsed me and said: "i want a list of who's coming tmr and who's not. asap. i'll be calling them up to ask why and stuff. thanks." bloody hell. is it random? AHH. am i being paranoid! gah. difficult to post. maybe it's all because of me. ha ha. being extremely ego here. im not that influential lah. coincidentally everyone is busy on the same day what! bloody hell. my appointment was like made one month ago hello? wahlao. why wenyun and amelia discuss so long one.. must be going in circles. ho ho. die.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
2:53 PM
oohoo. today we had dachangjin prac. ^^. janice started it. on the yunluo. and i tried to copy on the glockenspiel and wenyun on the muqin, playing it the other way round. then i think amelia added in the tambourine and amanda.. hmm. yeehee. sat there and sang. haha. no lah. i think she laughed along. and then in came jiali and josselyn and chewmin from the other door, for measurements. oohoo. nice. looking for dachangjin mp3 now. so many chinese version one.. ^^. im a pest. xiao long bao was so-so. i still think saturday's crystal jade ones were nicer. gah. okay just go and see this flash. if you havent seen it before.
here.
Saturday, June 03, 2006
8:36 PM
o.o im like flooding this place. ^^.
A Wonderful Story
A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said "I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat.""Is the man of the house home?", they asked."No", she replied. "He's out."
"Then we cannot come in", they replied.In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened."Go tell them I am home and invite them in!"The woman went out and invited the men in"
"We do not go into a House together," they replied.
"Why is that?" she asked.
One of the old men explained: "His name is Wealth," he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, "He is Success, and I am Love." Then he added, "Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home."
The woman went in and told her husband what was said. Her husband was overjoyed. "How nice!!", he said. "Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth. Let him come and fill our home with wealth!"
His wife disagreed. "My dear, why don't we invite Success?"
Their daughter-in-law was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: "Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!"
"Let us heed our daughter-in-law's advice," said the husband to his wife."Go out and invite Love to be our guest."The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, "Which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest."
Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, the lady asked Wealth and Success: "I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?"
The old men replied together: "If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!!!"
MY WISH FOR YOU...
-Where there is pain, I wish you peace and mercy.-Where there is self-doubting, I wish you a renewed confidence in your ability to work through it.-Where there is tiredness, or exhaustion, I wish you understanding, patience, and renewed strength.-Where there is fear, I wish you love, and couragefound in my email inbox.
today's percuzshiok concert/workshop was qutie boring anyway. ... yah. cos basically we knew most of the things already. the songs were quite amusing lah. but most of them i think played last year at their annual concert already.. yes so not much xin1 xian1 gan3. after the concert yawen was like "feedback!! feedback!! constructive feedback!" o.o. amelia was like "yawen so scary..!" hehe.
im positively bored. no. negatively. ^^. ahaha. maybe i should try creating my own skin too ^^. i tried once upon a time, a nong nong time ago. but i realised my "skin" was not cohesive enough. therefore i abandoned it. ^^. motivate me to create a skin, ie. tell me why i should create a skin and i might. oh actually there's no why lah. cos my skin is personal. nevermind. monologuing.
extra OPTIONAL prac on
monday (5 june 06) at
school. meet at the
foyer at
8am. if you're late, you're fined
$1 per minute, which can be paid in
cash or kind. ((:
so do not be late. currently
wenyun owes us about $8, which will be paid for in kind (self-made konnyaku jelly). ((: and
amelia owes us about $3 for today, which she has not decided how to pay.
yes. we [amelia, yingting, janice, me] went to crystal jade la mian xiao long bao to eat lunch!! at holland V. we decided on this one instead of kitchen cos here got AIRCON. oohoohoo. yes. our bill was considerably smaller than the other time.. last time was about $56 right.. today's was $38. o.o but last time's average was $9.30, and this time's average was $9.50. o.o. and today janice was the Big Spender. ^^ xiaolongbao is so delicious-ness man.. oohoo. i want somemore!
and then outside crystal jade there's this ah ma selling malt candy and me and amelia got two. janice and yingting didnt want to eat it.. haii, should have just bought for them and stuffed it down. [like what wenyun did to me on monday. GAH.] i knew must twist and twist but dunno twist for what. so after that during dinner my mum kindly enlightened me that one is supposed to twist the candy until it's white, then eat. cos it's special. o.o. okay. next time i buy it i will twist it till it's white. next time.. when? ahaha. maybe we'll just go to holland V just to look for that ah ma to buy her candy. ^^. then we spent about 1 hour wandering around, looking for ulu pandan cc. arh. we finally gave up and asked the bus driver. we took the bus and we passed by the bus stop that we alighted from to wander. ^^. ha ha. we finally reached ulu pandan cc and stoned there, eh no. fiddled with our phones. until 3.30 when the workshop started. yes. that's what we did today, for $20.
when i dont spend, i dont spend. when i spend, i blow my money. ^^. and today blew $55+ on clothes. two pieces. oohoo. not my money ((: so not so xin1 tong4. ehehe. yah. today i spent about $20, including concert ticket.
and janice kindly remarked that i was wearing the same colour as the ri ppl. cos they were wearing the rj concert shirt. and i was wearing orange. thanks.
ciaos. im bored, therefore i blogged. i shall go watch X2 or matrix 2 now. ((: see you on mon!
Thursday, June 01, 2006
7:18 PM
phantom of the opera craze. ^^
Sarah Brightman - Wishing you were somehow here again
You were once my one companion
You were all that mattered
You were once a friend and father
Then my world was shattered
Wishing you were somehow here again
Wishing you were somehow near
Sometimes it seemed if I just dreamed
Somehow you would be here
Wishing I could hear your voice again
Knowing that I never would
Dreaming of you won't help me to do
All that you dreamed I could
Passing bells and sculpted angels
Cold and monumental
Seem for you the wrong companions
You were warm and gentle
Too many years fighting back tears
Why can't the past just die?
Wishing you were somehow here again
Knowing we must say goodbye
Try to forgive, teach me to live
Give me the strength to try
No more memories, no more silent tears
No more gazing across the wasted years
Help me say goodbye
Help me say goodbye
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Sarah Brightman & Cliff Richard - All I ask of you
Raoul (Cliff)
No more talk of darkness,
forget these wide-eyed fears;
I'm here, nothing can harm you,
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears;
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you.
Christine (Sarah)
Say you'll love me ev'ry waking moment;
turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me with you now and always;
promise me that all you say is true,
that's all I ask of you.
RaoulLet me be your shelter,
let me be your light;
you're safe, no one will find you,
your fears are far behind you.
ChristineAll I want is freedom,
a world with no more night;
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me.
Raoul Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime;
let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you want me with you, here beside you,
anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.
Christine
Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime.
Say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me, each night, each morning.
Say you love me ...
Raoul You know I do.
Together:
Love me, that's all I ask of you ...
Love me, that's all I ask of you.
Anywhere you go, let me go too,
that's all I ask of you.
x_x_x_x_x_x_x
o.o this is post 13! oohoohoo.
i was a bad bad girl today.